I am so stupid sometimes.
Today I stood in line for lunch and when it was almost my turn to order I suddenly realized that I had no money left in my lunch account. I stepped out of line, and then I looked in my backpack. I found five dollars. I didn't want to stand in line again and wait, and they would probably be out of food by the time it was my turn anyways. So I sat on a bench and waited for lunch to be over.
Mrs. West (support counselor) called me in to see her today during physics. She just wanted to catch up. She recommended that I e-mail my teachers and tell them what has been going on.
On this bench at lunch I started thinking about things, and this lunch deal made me very upset for some reason. Ok, I sweat excessively. I hate this. I started thinking about this and how no one is ever gonna want to be with me if I sweat like this. I won't be able to hold hands with anyone.
So I got really upset and I didn't want to go to class like that. I sat in the quad when class started after lunch. Then this guy came up to me and asked me where I was supposed to be. I told him, and he said I should either go to class or go to the nurse's office. I went to the nurse's office and had my mom take me home.
Now my mom is really, really angry. She said she can't stand it anymore. She thinks that everything's about me and that I want to be sad. She said "what can you possibly be upset about now? Everyone is bending over backwards to make things happen for you." I thought about taking the steering wheel out of her hands and moving into oncoming traffic.
I am going to e-mail my teachers now.
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Okay, I am going to talk about the sweaty hand thing... I was the same way, and when I was your age we went to dances all the time, and you always held hands with the person you were dancing with, even when fast dancing, and my life was a nightmare because of that. I also always lived in fear that someone would want to shake hands with me. Guess what, when someone likes you, they say sweet things like "Cold hands, warm heart" or "let me warm up your poor little cold hands for you" and pretty soon you relax about it and then they aren't cold and clammy any more, because they are only like that because you are nervous!!
Please please try to get outside of your own head.... practice being interested in everything around you, and not in yourself!!
Now you can be mad at me too, if you want. I can take it!!
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