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I walked in my room today to find a certificate on my desk that said: Congratulations! You did it: You passed your GED exam. We are so proud of you!

I got a perfect score on the reading and writing sections.

So that's done. Yay!

Today I totally ran a red light by accident. When I was pulling out of the school parking lot. I may be good at reading and writing, but I suck at driving. Gah.

Random people have been saying hi to me recently. People I don't know and that I've never seen before. One of those people is in my PE class but I had never spoken to her before. She was my partner today in ping pong and she seemed really excited about it. She's like, "you're my partner?" Then at lunch these freshman boys came up and introduced themselves to me. They want to eat lunch with me every day now. The chocolate milk I had bought was leaking pretty bad and they bought me a new one. What is up with this? Why am I getting all this attention all the sudden? Usually when this happens, when someone wants to be my friend or whatever, I don't let them get any closer to me. So I'm not gonna do that this time. I am not gonna avoid them like I usually would. But then I'll be out of school and I won't see them anyway. So oh, well.

I ended up not going out last night. I just didn't feel like doing it. I took a sleeping pill and went to bed early. I fell asleep on the couch and at around midnight my mom told me to go in my bed.

Bradley update: Today Mrs. Bradley revealed that her idea of hell is to be chained to a chair listening to hip hop music. Yeah, that would suck.

We have a ton of extra candy from last night. My mom always buys bags and bags of it, but we don't ever have a lot of trick-or-treaters. It's enough to last til next year.

I guess I'm done with trick-or-treating. It seems like work to me now. I feel bad about last night because my sister really wanted to go with me. She went out with my dad but came back because she was wasn't having any fun. I sort of ruined Halloween for my family.

My mom said she should have known I would do this. I really just decided that I didn't want to go while I was in the shower that afternoon. My mom thinks I was planning this for days but didn't say anything until yesterday.

So now I'm on their Hate List. And I should be. I was very selfish.

Today during the last few minutes of school the other support counselor, Mr. Callaway, called me in to see him. He wanted to check up on me because apparently one of my teachers notified him about my e-mail. I told him that I have been seeing Mrs. West pretty frequently. Since she's not at school every day, he said that I could come in to see him any time.

Along with the mean, horrible, ignorant kids come the nice, compassionate, smart kids. These kids are making themselves known to me suddenly. Through all this hate I have for Foothill, I am feeling love now. Not for Foothill, but towards me. What is happening? Why is this so complicated? I still think leaving FHS is the best choice for me, but I admit there will be some things (people) that I will miss.

I have mixed emotions right now. All of this is butchering my face, making me break out like crazy. Jesus. Lord. The Holy Spirit.

I don't know if my mom will still be mad at me when she gets home. She's the one who put my GED letter on my desk, standing up on my computer. So there is something positive there.

Tomorrow is no school. I don't know what I will do. I will think of something.