Oh no!

Well, guess what. I have a new disorder! Yay! Haha.

And.... two more people friended me on Facebook. They each have over two hundred friends!

Seriously. I hope I do have Aspergers because that means that it is not my fault. Yes. I only met one person with Aspergers and she was very rude and annoying. She was at zoo camp. She was very disruptive. The counselor told us not to blame her because she just had this disorder.

So... I am not like that. I guess it takes on many symptoms and ways of expression.

Anyway, I am not unhappy with this news. I think it makes perfect sense. Now I can blame something for all my problems.

I don't know if you remember mom, but one of the girls on America's Next Top Model had Aspergers. She said it was a form of autism.

Autism? I don't know.

On the other hand, there is no cure for this thing. So I don't know how medication can help. You just have to make sure your environment is comfortable. But that can't be the case all the time. You are going to run into situations that are uncomfortable.

Some symptoms I can right now identify with are:

Small focus. Focusing on one thing at a time.; the need to be in control for group activities; social fear; obsessing over things that I have said or done in the past; collecting and organizing things a lot; being most comfortable alone.

So, I guess that is pretty much the definition of Asperger's.

Also, sometimes people with Aspergers say things that are hurtful without really meaning to. Maybe that's why I called that one girl a bitch in my English class and why I once told mom that my problems were all her fault.

And... we think Grandpa may have it too. Maybe that's why he said what he did to me.

...... now I have to read all these books about it. I don't think it changes too many things. Maybe it will just give me some new strategies.

I feel like I am on Mystery Diagnosis. People have all these symptoms but no one can tell them what is causing them. Until finally they find out.

That is all. Grammy says I should go to an Aspergers specialist to see if they can tell me for sure whether I have it or not.

Bye!